"There are only two mistakes one can make on along the road to truth, not going all the way and not starting."
~ Buddha
On the concept of ownership. (written on January 18th, 2015 and never posted on PA)
I am called to address this subject on Avalon. Whether we consciously agree to it or not the Project Avalon forum has an owner. To many he is seen to be a benevolent ruler and by others perceived to be an adversary, and I am sure all manner of images in between. One might be wise to review inside themselves what they are projecting onto him, a valuable study for Selfhood.
I go so far as to state that it is a burden for anyone to bear, others projections always carry weight, a mass and often many expectations.
Let me state that I honored the founder of Avalon, through me still flows gratitude. I know many of the dear souls on the (Avalon) forum feel this too. It was his strength that brought this space together, his fortitude in the face of battles with the enemy that gave him the courage to place the staff in the ground and declare:
"Working ceaselessly together for the freedom of ALL BEINGS".
For myself that was a herald, the truth will set you free. So many came, drawn to Avalon and what she represented. So I ask(ed) Are the WE not Avalon? Are not the True Hearted souls gathered here the very ones who are Avalon.
So what of ownership? What of politics? It is has been declared that Bill Ryan is the owner of the forum and with that declaration my heart sinks, so I dive inside my self to find out why. After careful analysis and entering into deepened states of awareness I have emerged with the following point of view - that Bill Ryan represents the staff he planted on the high ground. And we who participate in the forum (the members) are in reality Avalon along with him. In this respect, he is but one of us.
Avalon has often been alluded to as a ship, one that set a course for many to follow. My questions revolve around what allegiances does this ship ask in return? It appears that political correctness has crept in and taken hold, the approved and the disapproved are named. One is, by surreptitious manner, asked to pledge allegiance to a single person's point of view which in my most humble and passionate opinion is folly. In other words if a person or subject is disapproved of, we, the body of members must tacitly disapprove too in order to stay in favor, to keep a status or at least remain publicly silent in our disapproval.
Allow me the use of metaphor and allegory, my points should not be taken as a personal assault as my pure intent is to relentlessly have the courage to speak my truth in the face of adversarial forces.
What I perceive on the forum is the politics of kingship. While appearing benevolent and I am not saying in his heart a king isn't good, just that the fact is clear, he rules. I would see nothing wrong with this as long as it is clearly stated and we the joiners of Avalon are aware of what we are agreeing to. The king has a superior position so we the body of members are by position under this rule and subservient to it.
(The rules of engagement are not being questioned here, I agreed to a code of conduct conducive to respectful dialog and sharing. What I am digging for is the underlying unseen fine print on the contract.)
I joined the ship of Avalon that had set a course for the stars, a cosmic voyage, that declared sovereign BEingness as its very core. For me this ship named Avalon has become marooned in the eddies of political correctness and tacit approvals and disapprovals, murky undefined rights and wrongs. Avalon has been co-opted in conspiratorial games that only seek to divide. It is this that saddens my heart. Not looking to blame, I share what I see.
It is my nature to publish my words, knowing that they may well be perceived as an intent other than what they are meant to carry. We are expanding, ever reaching in an attempt toward freedom, to dismantle the prison without bars. While many have broken the limits of one barrier and then another, one must honestly ask what comes next? Not for the timid this stretch we are making, it takes a courageous heart and the humility of lessons hard earned.
Speak, I must. As an immense compassionate heart-felt pulse is beating within us all, we are the Living Truth. It is in honor and respect for our unique Essence that I stand True.
Christine
Post script ~ those few eyes that will read this will also know that I have been accused publicly of theft, this by a man who is my lawful wedded husband and one who pledged his love and all his worldly belongings to me in a sacred vow. I need not justify nor defend for I stand with my truth and by my words above. I am not a victim in this game, it was my choice to marry and my choice to leave. I know there are ways to dissolve a contract with grace, this has been repeatedly denied so I will use silence as my statement.
"Do you have eyes, and not see, and do you have ears, and not hear? ... Alas! what cause we have to lament for those around us, who destroy themselves."
To all who would inquire this is what I have to say: When a contract is made, both verbal and legal .... it is made to be honored. For myself a person is only as good as his word. There are dignified ways to withdraw from a contract, it takes courage and acceptance of ones own responsibility including errors. I don't think private affairs of this nature are anyone's business but the two who contracted. I offer again as I have since we parted to sit and come to equitable terms. My multiple offers have so far been ignored.
I do not participate in public trials nor honor trials behind closed doors. I have lost some of my dearest friends and this brings me great sadness though it is but a flicker in the light of eternity, we will all eventually meet again. With Love ~ All Ways.
