I was not going to post the following, because it kind of repeats a common theme in quite a bit of my writing, so it is nothing new. But, several strange other worldly happenings over the last few weeks, culminating in a somewhat dramatic showdown, has caused me to change my mind. As I was talking with my husband this morning, he shared that the last night he spent in the cabin up the road, about three weeks ago, he had an ominous experience in which he woke in the night seeing two shadowy figures at the end of the bed, looking at him, and saying how they were going to making his life a living hell. That hasn't happened, but there has been some high strangeness. Some may not view life this way, but, for me, it has become apparent that we are already at war, and most just don't really know it yet. Because it is not a war of the flesh, but a spiritual battle that is becoming somehow, for lack of a better way to say it, more intense. I had a strange dream myself last night. In fact, my sharing of it with my husband is what prompted him to reveal his experience (he doesn't like to worry me).

Anyway, this is for any of you who have felt under the gun as of late. This is no time to get weak in the knees. We are there now, the time we have all been waiting for. It is up to us to determine how it all proceeds. It feels to me much like a void of course moon, where time is suspended somehow, because the outcome is truly not fully known. This is a rarity. For, unbeknownst to most, our reality doesn't just happen. A great deal of planning and creating occurs on the other side. But somehow, this window of time that we are in, allows us to truly interject something new, something unprecedented. Even I can't tell you what that will look like, because, for once, it really is unknown by both sides of the equation. What do we as a people really want our world to look like? Time will tell, I guess.


The Gathering Storm

I find it a challenge to move out of the anger I feel at times, when I hear, see, or read something that is so at odds with the ethics ground into me from parental figures, religion, and from potently broadcast social mores through various media, and peer pressure all my life. Honesty, integrity, responsibility, fairness, equitable and conscientious decision making, were all the hallmarks of what we should supposedly strive for so that the world and reality we all share here on planet earth prospers and benefits.

Unless you have managed to somehow not see even a glimmer of what's been slapping me up side the head, then you are probably as unsettled as I am about the reality we find ourselves, as opposed to the one we were taught to imagine we were going to grow up and inherit. I remember all too well the rhetoric from my youth, blasting out at me from our television set. Oh yes, all this war is necessary, to make this world a safer place. And I remember all too well all the lies I had to discard from my many years of indoctrination from the public school system. The glare of truth simply became too bright for me to swallow the total mind numbing line of crap they had sold to pretty much everyone else around me.

And I remember my encounters with many indigenous youth when I attended North Idaho College, while taking advantage of a special program for high school dropouts to get their GED that was available at the time. This was during the mid 70's, when our ruling institutions still had some credibility in the eyes of many people. Still a lot of idealism and expectation for positive change through established channels of government. The truth was much harder to discern at the time, and the herd was much easier to manipulate.

Not that they still aren't (easy to manipulate), but nowadays you can no longer claim that well researched and documented information to the contrary is not available. So ignorance in this day and age is a chosen state of being, which has no valid excuse in most cases.

We have been hammered over and over to not show how we really feel about so many things. It's not ok to hate gay people, but somehow it's ok to hate them in secret, as long as you don't openly show it. It's not ok to vote for Hillary, because we all know what a criminal she is. Oh no, it's not ok to vote for Trump, because {fill in the blank}. Uh oh, it's not ok to say the system is rigged and I'm not voting at all either!

I remember taking a college class about the history of the native peoples in this land I was born and grew up in. I was taught about the many tribes and languages. And it was all presented in a way that made our history look progressive, as if improvement had been made over time, and such barbaric policies from those times had been done away with. And that we had somehow moved on to a much more equitable society in our behaviors. And that some of this was due to the judicial system having brought these positive changes because of our caring political figures, who only want to make the world a better place.

And I now know what a crock it all really was. We haven't changed for the better at all. The evidence to the contrary seems to mount with every passing day, unless you live in an imaginary world. But strangely, there is an awakening that is growing in equal strength.

And that is the question, really. How to live in this strange world where cognitive dissonance prevails, and maintain your integrity, your will to just be here and to live your life the best you can despite the horror one will inevitably feel at the realization of how bad they've been duped. For in this world our rulers are anything but godlike. The only thing that separates them from us is their ability to operate without a twinge of conscience that afflicts most of the rest of humanity.

For I really do feel many would awaken, as if from a dream, and immediately begin changing direction to a more life affirming course once the spell of deceit and lies has been removed. For many, I feel, have literally been hypnotized into acceptance of a reality whose foundation is crumbling under their feet. I can see no other way this can go.

So, while I struggle with the anger anyone would feel when seeing such overwhelming injustices being meted out on such an unprecedented level, I know I must put an equal amount of energy into creating that reality I want to experience for myself, regardless of what is occurring in the world around me. The energy of nature, in all her bounty, still resides here in ample quantities and can be accessed and utilized in an honorable and life affirming way that still can and does benefit all. If it weren't for this knowing, I'm not sure I could gather the strength I need for what is surely ahead for us all.

Two books come to mind as I have been writing. One, Political Ponerology, I have mentioned before. The other, Anatomy of Peace published in 1945 by Emery Reves, also has much to offer and ponder on. Part of the idea, the big one that gets us collectively in so much trouble, has to do with a concept that subtly underlies what we think the problem is. It is not just unadulterated greed, it is the idea that we should strive to be like a) the Gods, b) those who designated themselves as stand-ins for the so-called gods (often giving themselves special titles and privileges). Now this category can be anything from religious figures we've put up on pedestals, to politicians, to those who claim to be of "royal blood", and so on. All of these categories are related. But they all hold this idea of putting themselves in a special class that has been self deemed worthy of having more than everyone else, yet selling us the idea that we should all strive to be like them. That if we work hard enough, and don't mind walking over those who often work even harder but aren't as well positioned or as driven, to arrive at this lofty high status where you can spend the rest of your life enjoying your excess.

There is a glaring double standard in this, as well as a totally illogical psychopathic mindset. The biggest being that you cannot continue to exploit and reap the benefits of any finite set of resources indefinitely, unless an equal amount of energy is put into ensuring the continuance of those resources.

It's become like a cancerous growth that will literally eventually implode on itself. And, it has been shown over and over again throughout time. So, I can clearly see the train wreck coming.

But still, it's a good day to be alive, because I choose to make it so. All I can personally do is keep tending to my own personal garden, not be afraid to risk all to stand on the side of life. For a life filled with death fulfilling prophecies is just not my thing. And pray with out ceasing for so many who in one way or another have risen to the occasion, wherever you find yourself to be, and have stood up to the Cult of Death by literally putting your life on the line. I have no doubt my time will come.

A huge hug for you Spiritwind.

Remember that because of your age and sensitivities, it is possible that you and your husband are sensing events around the corner that will affect *many* people.

I get the impression that life circumstances have put you both in a situation where the isolation may amplify the sense of danger to self.

But many times when we have disturbing dreams, something is about to happen to the group. Even when we are physically isolated we are very much connected to this collective. Especially if we use Internet or standardized religious practice, anything really that gets you mentally into "the groove", ie the aleph from which one may sense the world.

I am super concerned for you two. However since I see you both as spiritual authorities and these experiences were extremely unsettling, we of the group would be wise to listen.

Personally I am very concerned about how Russia and USA are doing in middle east, killing the natives for access to gas and oil.

Just like Dakota Access Pipeline. I would not like to see politics change so severely that we have such a one sided war at home. But the planet is our home... this notion of "i am safe here" away from that etc. An illusion.

Not saying that preparation is bad. No not at all. If you guys managed to live another 40 years I'd be so happy and relieved. What i really fear aside from losing the friendship is losing your knowledge, which in my mind is irreplaceable.

Threaten as they may, you know what? When we get the big earthquake it is the authorities who will suffer. The whole world will see how they failed to plan for the people.

I think the shame and mistakes of other people can generate disturbances in our dreamtime as well.

I have been concerned for your spouse ever since my visit, because of what he's been thru etc. I would not want to make it worse, have tried to be discreet.

Three months ago, would that have been about a month before my visit? I was extremely inspired by both your lives and if you feel threatened in any way by anyone, please tell someone and tell us too, hopefully damn car fixed before December.

If I've given off a depressing tone lately, car and bike are gone, the river got cold, my neighbors suck, and my phone is acting strange, this morning i woke up to a messsge it was downloading an App without my permission, God only knows what.

If you guys need a winter laborer i have my grandpas coat , don't kill yourselves over it, argh

Hugs for all

Been thinking about this more, that maybe I missed the point. Thank you for sharing your impression.

I have been seeing unfortunate stuff in high level news, sort of along these lines.

Hi Naga, you are such a worry wort! We will be fine. I may even have a mini breakdown now and then, but we'll still be fine. I didn't mean to sound apocalyptic in my post. Everyone will process what is to come in their own unique way. I cannot in truth say I have no fear. I just have learned to recognize it, take the wind out of it, and make it take a back seat.

Two things weighing heavy on me at the moment. One, I watched a short live video, about 7 minutes long, a couple days ago, made by Syd Hajicek. He had been at Standing Rock as a water protector and got arrested for trespassing. He called his video "Institutional Racism at it's finest" and it really was just that. It was rather horrifying to hear that this kind of thing is going on right under the American peoples noses, and yet is somehow not garnering a massive outcry from the public. I do not understand. So, that got me a bit riled up.

And as far as the shadow being my husband saw, he was awake, and it was 3 weeks ago, not months, so it was after you have came and left. The only reason it has got our attention now is because of several people coming into view with a lot of anger directed towards us, but no real valid reason to explain it. It's not so strange that people act out, have family squabbles and so forth. But the timing is very strange, as well as the impact it will have on us this winter.

My husband and I took care of an elderly woman with Alzheimer's for a year, which ended in June 2014, when she died and we moved out here. Her daughter, for some unknown reason, came stomping in to where my husband works with a large dream catcher with a wolf on it that we had left behind, and a few pieces of mail a couple days ago. We hadn't went back that one last time because she was kind of a grumpy and unpleasant woman towards the end there. But why she would have been so angry after more than two years later I cannot fathom. And why now?

Then a couple family members on my husband's side have suddenly decided to have a problem over something that seems to us very petty and small in the bigger scheme of things. We could be wrong, but I guess everyone is entitled to their own perspective. When you add this all up though, it does seem strangely fulfilling of these shadow beings threat to make life hard.

And, I happen to know from personal experience that my husband is quite psychically tuned in and sensitive to the unseen world. All this doesn't really change anything. But it does indicate we need to be more careful in our choices and go at it with an only do what we can for ourselves mode. Someone had promised to do some things for us and kind of quit at the end because of created drama over nothing (it was over something that had never even been discussed with me). And, it turns out, this person is very spiteful and vindictive. I guess everyone eventually plays their hand. It's actually good to know about a person, to find out that you really shouldn't trust them in what they say. It's never a fun experience though.

And, dang girl, if you want to come for a visit, you are welcome anytime, but I'm not going to put you to work. Just being here is work enough for many anyway. At least I'm smiling now. Thank you. But, just to clarify, I am NOT a spiritual authority. YOU are your own best authority, and don't ever let anyone tell you different. I may have learned a thing or two from my experiences, and I may have studied a number of different spiritually oriented systems of understanding, but I am learning new things all the time. And sometimes, I learned what I thought I knew was wrong. If anything, I'm good at learning from my mistakes. But you, Naga, have already demonstrated to me that you have good intuition. But too much worry can ruin ones intuition too, this I know from personal experience. So, if I encourage anyone to do anything, it would be to trust, or teach yourself to trust, in Yourself!

Oh, and last but not least, my thing about the presidential race has to do with how I see people responding on my Facebook feed. Some people have parted ways over this election, and are in full meltdown mode. It's kind of weird to watch. Big sigh. And not really a good sign of things to come either.

I'm super sad re Facebook! Such a powerful tool, yet for so many, a choice between A/B and no middle ground.

Back in the day when MySpace was the huge thing, kids with alt views or anything counterculture etc were hiding out of private subforums on sites like Gaia Online.

Nowadays? I think most of my family uses FB. I'm sure if I still used either of my old accts we'd be fighting... no news will have to be good news. I wanted to follow up with the cousin who has IBS (doodoo) trouble.

I told your SO that I had a cousin in special forces, but I didn't elaborate or explain lol.

My actual first cousin Cameron qualified for Army Rangers but developed debilitating stomach upset after BMT etc. He's a few years my junior and i have no idea what happened after the tummy disease..

My grandfather has a younger brother who was born at home, doesn't show up on Ancestry wtf. But he was Vietnam green beret and has this training story of the instructor standing on my g uncle's hand in a swamp. Ie he was hiding during evasion training and crunch. But instructor didn't see him. Lol.

Then there's my second cousin on dad's side, he was the low light diver who wasn't certain who he worked for directly.

I started stuttering trying to tell your hubby the story and assumed he thought i was full of crap lololol.

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Well regarding winter and work. No one wants an unwanted tenant or squatter but lemme know if something changes and you need help. Yes i worry a ton cause of my grandfather in Kentucky working too much.



Very sorry to hear that people are wigging out irl too.
The dream catcher thing is odd. Yesterday i was looking for stinky candles and incense at goodwill and saw a dreamcatcher buried in heavy crap so i rescued it and hung it up. Lol. I might have to go back and buy it, i think it was a woman with wolf. Haha

P.s. i just put it together about racism and the way the lady returned your item. Thats awful lol

I'm trying to figure out how to tie this all in. I wrote above about a situation I referred to as petty, and basically creating unnecessary drama. Well, I now have to retract that statement. And this is what I mean about not being an authority on much of anything. I, too, was missing the bigger picture.

And this seems worthy of writing about, because it does, in a way, get kind of to the crux of the problem. Wherever we are, is wherever we are. So, what seemed small and petty to me, was actually not at all to the other participants. And every single black cloud does seem to have a silver lining. That is, if you look at life as continuously providing an opportunity to be love in action. No matter what the situation, or how angry or emotional a situation may stimulate you to be, there is always something positive to take away, if you choose to take this route. Sometimes it takes a very long time to see this for yourself, but if you are patient, it will eventually happen.

I wrote the above a few days ago, and already the swiftly moving river of life has moved me along, to where it is hard to catch the thread again. I'm sitting here, looking out the window, as I am watching the heavy rains of earlier turn to snow. I see all the goaties peeking out their shelters, not wanting to come out. There is a pile of books at my feet. I brought a box of them from storage a couple days ago, thinking I could move most of them along to new owners. I'm now wondering where the heck I am going to find room for them, as the pile that will be moving on is very small, LOL.

So much on my mind. As always, and especially with a dear friend actually there, my thoughts go to those who are still standing their ground at Standing Rock. I'm fairly certain I have lost a few friends on Facebook due to my continued efforts to bring awareness and to take up the slack for a complete lack of reporting, especially accurate reporting, in the mainstream news.

The clarity about the mind control being used to steer our collective consciousness here and there has become most apparent. It has actually spurred some to action, as the need to do something becomes too strong to ignore. I know some people cannot handle the guilt that rises to the surface, in knowing that their ancestors may have participated in such dastardly activities in times past. And there is still rampant prejudice that many don't know still exists in ample amounts.

And then I have our own personal family matters that have been challenging as of late. So, my first response was anger and indignation. How dare you blah blah. Then, as more reveals itself, I realize the matter is much more complex than I thought. Life usually is. After hearing a highly charged and emotional outburst of rather epic proportions, I realized the backed up emotions from all sides was definitely no small matter. I had to revisit and revise my attitude of earlier on. Changing course is not always easy to do.

But I had told this person repeatedly that I loved him. So, even though the anger and blame seemed a bit ridiculous coming from someone his age (mid 40's), I also know family dynamics, when on display, can make all appear as children still. In fact, that is often when the problem began. So approaching the matter with a tight rein on being right didn't seem the appropriate solution. And that is what I am all about these days. How do you achieve the desired outcome. Hanging on to some need to be right sometimes just gets in the way of being love in action. I had to let it all go.

And by that I mean even any expectations about anyone else's behavior past, present, or future. Love doesn't have strings attached. It just is, and yet, it is also action and doing. It is both. I saw with clarity what I could do to alleviate the situation and improve relations, possibly. It's like planting seeds though. Not all grow. But still, a worthy endeavor. Now I have to follow through with my part too, though, and actually do what I said I was going to do, in the time I have said it, or it will all fall apart again. This part is important to me, for I recognize that I have sometimes made promises I found I could not keep for one reason or another. This can and does create problems. So I try very hard to only promise what I am fairly certain I can follow through on. I have seen feelings hurt so many times over these kinds of things.

And there it is again, personal responsibility. No matter what situation we may find ourselves, fair or unfair, it is still up to us to be true to ourselves. You can't really, in the end, blame anyone for your own choices. Which is so strange to contemplate, because this ties in so well with where I am at on the tree. I am on the next to the last one, entitled judgment. And judgment is closely related to choices we make (based on our perceptions and beliefs), and the consequences they produce. So interesting to me on several levels.

And how does this tie into the coming storm? I'm not sure, but probably has to do with answering how to stay in that space of love, no matter what is coming at you. It's so easy on a lazy sunny day, when all is well. It's a different matter when the storm is upon you and life has become very challenging, sometimes just to survive. Some have done a good job only seeing what they want to see, and are in denial of the changing of the season. It will not keep its ferociousness from intruding on their sense of reality, sooner or later.

I've tried hard to prepare for stormy weather, but you can only do so much before it is upon you and you find out how well you really did, and how well you can adapt to that which you were not prepared for. Miscalculations can always be made. I know we made a few. But, once again, we humans can be incredibly adaptable and resourceful. So, there is good news in there too. On that note, I will stop for now and go eat my oatmeal with blueberries and almond milk. My stomach is rumbling and I'm sure everyone else wants to get fed too.