Christine wrote:Thank you Eelco, your post on Buddha this morning had the real beauty of transparency... your light doth shine. It isn't even the hopeful stuff... some of it is hard to deal with, everyday I go deeper. Balance, on the head of a pin.
Thanks too Eelco!! Thanks Christine!! Thanks to all Trolls in all times!!
The idea I have is that whole hearted focus expressed in action IS magic. My waffling is the waver that dilutes the power. IMO my willingness to act on what I prefer to prefer DESPITE ALL EVIDENCE is a very powerful one.
(But I do not always choose what I prefer) Is this what the troll in me needs to be paid to allow me to cross the bridge?
For instance, about being happy no matter what. It is just NOT a simple matter but the hardest of tasks because I become churlish. Being happy now has direct feedback but part of me still enjoys being unhappy. That is what I see in people around me too.
My love needs to be given to my inner troll and forgiveness and a new day.
"OK, No fault, Choose again."
The AH HA is the No fault, Choose again paradox. Being that ALL or Nothing is the binary artifice, I go with sliding in to preference. The way I was tricked IMO was always that my previous choices were the cause of anything NOW. The power to choose again and again is greater than anything I ever tried.
SO, I know now what I am facing to be "I am sovereign" living in a great place: Am I willing to commit 100% to celebration of what I choose before evidence? Am I willing to choose what I would celebrate? Both sides of a coin IMO to feed my inner troll.
If failure is not an option, and if freedom is inevitable, whoo hoo. Why not just be happy now? I just cannot understand what in (me too) the world would be the continued perverse pleasure of suffering but do I need to study it anymore? NO.
I will (by the power of being free to choose) turn my head around. And I will say YES. That is so freeing to me....that I can constantly change my mind. I doubt the utility of me telling you to do the same but I HOPE to show this is a very wonderful strategy.
After sleeping late, I am enjoying a doughnut and coffee to celebrate that this is my best day ever. Here I am a few minutes shy of noon. The sun is warming everything today after icy rain and I have plans to buy chicken food, clean my kitchen and start clearing some things out so I can put away my kitchen stuff. The troll is going with me (us) out for a walk. We will bring back more gifs hehe. Love, Maggie